lyrics of my heart

My Dear, L'arc en Ciel

2008-11-21T11:46:00.000+07:00

now, go out and look for love - into the depth of the forest
(real love, my dear, is not for sale.)
that's something i couldn't find though i searched hard...
(real love, my dear, is hard to find.)

listen - even though the world is tarnished by mistakes
i will never let your hand let go of mine
at least you can believe in that

finally, i reached out my hand and grasped it
and held it tight, overjoyed
(real faith, my dear, is far too fake.)
so ephemeral it was that it died and decayed so soon
(real faith, my dear, is just a dream.)

someday, when the whole world encounters joy
if i were to first meet you then, i would never have shown you
my endless sorrow

where can it be... in my heart

listen - even though the world is tarnished by mistakes
i will never let your hand let go of mine
even if this feeling seems fake to you
it showers you with dazzling light, forever
at least you can believe in that

Crazy about You, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:43:00.000+07:00

Say, I want to catch an angel with these hands
And go and deliver this feeling that will never reach

My thoughts
Always pass unnoticed..

The words tightly locked up deep inside my heart
Can you melt it away for me?
Like the sun..

My feelings
Always pass unnoticed..

I will give
the slight aching I felt
And the tomorrow that I believed in
All to you, now.

Crazy about you I can't live without you
Embracing all these feelings
coming flooding out
Crazy about you I can't live without you
Setting out beyond this everlasting night

In this dry city that absorbs all our passion
I want you to embrace me until the day I die
In this dead city that absorbs all our passion
I roam around in the loneliness not knowing where to go
Stop all the clocks
And if it's allowed, I want to embrace you
until the day we die

Crazy about you I can't live without you
Just the way it is, in this pain
Crazy about you I can't live without you
Embracing all these feelings
coming flooding out
Crazy about you I can't live without you
Setting out beyond this everlasting night
Crazy about you I can't live without you
I can feel you.. right now.

Crazy about you..

Virgin Mary, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:38:00.000+07:00

maria maria Please answer me.. maria now..
Higher Self
The great Jesus Christ
maria
Please answer me.. now..

What does it look like
from those eyes of yours
Please make my sinful wish
come true..

Avoiding crowds
Embracing dreams
All it makes
are new wounds..

Whatever it looks like in your eyes
If it comes true, all hatred will resolve

Love Love Love Love Love Love Love
play out
Love Love
Please give us the flame of blessing
maria
Everything is diseased
Please maria hold me

Love Love Love Love Love Love Love
play out
Love Love
Please give us the flame of awakening
Love Love Love Love Love Love Love
play out
Love Love
Please give us the flame of blessing

Blame, Lar'c en Ciel

2008-11-21T11:36:00.000+07:00

Once again, we go back to the road
that branches into two
Without touching you or being confused, which road will I choose?
There's no way to tell

The crime I committed left a mark
deeper than that which I cut in your skin
Even if God blames you, I won't let Him, like that time
Please don't blame it on me

The scene of something piercing my heart won't go away
I can't breathe no matter how I fight

If people follow these footprints of mine, everyone will understand
If they follow the footprints filled with endless pain

Even if I spend the rest of my life
thinking about you every day,
someday, time will carry me
Who hugs my knees away
Please don't blame it on me

The scene of something piercing my heart won't go away
I can't breathe no matter how I fight

Even if I spend the rest of my life
thinking about you every day,
Someday, time will carry me
Who hugs my knees away

Even if I spend the rest of my life
counting my sins every day,
I will keep dancing in the night....

Forever and Ever, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:35:00.001+07:00

Go on, close your eyes
Feel that voice in your heart
Feel that faint sigh in your heart

How much longer do I have to hurt?
(Dream on)
If allowed, I want to you love me

The lonely nights weaken me
I want you to heal me, like a drug.

This fire so deep in this heart of mine
Continues to search
Shining my way to the future

Forever & ever
This feeling will never change

So bright
It keeps on shining and believing
Tonight
We set off
Away from this dry place

Like stars strung together in the night sky
Ah, I know this melody will go on forever and ever...

Forever & ever
I know we'll get there someday
Forever & ever
I know for sure

Close your eyes, open your mind, going back for a moment of time
To those days and take back the eternity and hope you felt for sure

Time changes all and strives to change me, too
If we fight, it hurts If we surrender, we go under

And many people are lost and hurt They let go of their most precious thing

Even if it breaks me to pieces
I want to keep believing, keep feeling till it ceases
The eternity deep in my heart

So, remember
That body, soul, mind, blood, tears, dreams, love, pain, and joy
Cause, they're all so precious, forever & ever

So bright
It keeps on shining and believing
Tonight
Let's set off,
Toward the light

My dried up heart continues to wander
It's hurted so much,
That it wishes to be loved
On this seemingly endless road,
I want to believe that there is an end
And I want to believe that there lingers what I've always desired

Forever & ever
If my wish to be loved is granted,
I want to find that love

"Out from my chaos to grace"

How far can I fly?
I want to be sure

Forever & ever
This feeling will never change

Forever & ever

I want you, all of you
I want you, all of you
I want you, I want to melt with you
I want you, all of you

Farewell, Lar'c en Ciel

2008-11-21T11:32:00.000+07:00

No matter how far and long the road is
I still walk barefoot
I look at tomorrow in the cold
But, you're not anywhere
I think of you all the time
Ah, what just flew by?
If I can be as gentle as this wind
Then, I can protect you from the endless pain and the cold

Even if I have nothing
I'll spread open my hands
Ah, soaring in the sky
If I can be as strong as this bird
Then, will you love me forever?

End of Sorrow, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:29:00.000+07:00

Embraced by the millions of stars
Forever calling out for my ambitions
As the rusty time oozed by,
You were shivering, for sure.

People probably fight against sudden accidents
And then the sepia memory learns how to cry
At the end of the century
when it's normal for people to mutter to themselves
I'm just beginning to understand myself

Embraced by the millions of stars
Forever calling out for my ambitions
As the rusty time oozes by,
Forever screaming out for my pains
I will never let you go, my precious.

Everyone experiences sleeplessness now
In the freezing cobalt-blue nights
Even if the wind gusts through you,
don't be afraid; trust your tomorrow.

Embraced by the millions of stars
Forever calling out for my ambitions
As the rusty time oozes by,
Forever screaming out for my pains
I can only think about you, my precious.

One experiences sorrow
And learns of true love
.. Why was I born in this world? ..
And then begins to love himself

Embraced by the millions of stars
Forever calling out for my ambitions
As the rusty time oozes by,
Forever screaming out for my pains
I will never let you go, my precious.
Never..

Oh, the days of sorrow
solitude
farewell

Forever and Ever, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:25:00.000+07:00

Close your eyes, you can still feel
The voice of the heart and the faint sighs

How long How much can you be hurt
Dream on If you allow me, I want to love you

The lonely night weakens me
Like a narcotic, I want to say no

Illuminate the future where my heart's profound lighted flame is still searching

Forever & ever And what day Forever & ever Unchanging
Forever & ever This feeling

So bright Shining, I continue to believe
Tonight Let's journey, it's dry from now on

Connected like the stars to the night sky Ah~ this melody is surely eternal

Forever & ever Surely someday Forever & ever We can struggle along
Forever & ever Surely someday Forever & ever

Close your eyes, open your mind, going back for a moment in time
To those days and take back the eternity and the hope you felt for sure
Time changes all and strives to change me, too
If we fight, it hurts If we surrender, we go under
And many people are lost and hurt They let go of their most precious thing
Even if it breaks me into pieces
I want to keep believing, keep feeling till it ceases
The eternity deep in my heart
So, remember
That body, soul, mind, blood, tears, dreams, love, pain, and joy
Cause, they're so precious, forever & ever

So bright Shining, I continue to believe
Tonight Let's journey into the middle of the light

My still wandering dry heart wants to be loved without being hurt
I want to believe that the thing that I seek is there besides this road that continues without end

Forever & ever If your wish is granted Forever & ever I want to find

"Out from my chaos to grace"

You want to make sure you know how far can you fly

Forever & ever
Forever & ever And what day Forever & ever Unchanging
Forever & ever

Precious, Lunasea

2008-11-21T11:11:00.000+07:00

I realised after parting you
That I can't sing well

The voice that's haunted my brain
The words of promise we made
To make a new start

Strange pride blind-folds me
And I can't sing well

Even if I go back to the beginning of this puzzle
And start solving all over again
I can't remember that crucial word..

If I force myself to cease to exist
I'll probably feel much better

The voice that's haunted my brain
The word of an outsider that marks the end

If I wake up from my dream now
And everything was back to normal..
I'm still searching for the key I'll never find,
lost deep in my memory

I can't go back to then
I can't even undo my errors
I can't return to then
I can't even undo my sins

..
I want to deliver that word

Cassis, The Gazette

2008-11-21T10:19:00.001+07:00

Always, over and over again
Always, I did nothing but made you sad
Surely I've hurt you, even now I still can't move

Why does it hurt so much to be touched by you?
Surely, the same things will repeat themselves
Because I'm scared I'll lose you

By drawing close I tried to wipe away
That day which I couldn't completely forget
You just held these hands without asking anything, didn't you?

Even if your feelings fade tomorrow
I'll still love you unchangingly
Even if you can't see me tomorrow
I'll still love you without fail

And we'll walk together, the future's not promised
it keeps walking together, to the future in which you are...

At least I can forget all the hard times
Thinking about you
Counting the number of nights I can't see you
My heart yearns for you

Inviting the loneliness of misunderstanding
Somehow, please don't cry alone
No matter how far apart we are
Let's believe in each other

I want to keep smiling like this no matter what
Not being made to hurt you
The number of time lapses are fading away
I don't want to repeat those feelings

Even if your feelings fade tomorrow
I'll still love you unchangingly
Even if you can't see me tomorrow
I'll still love you without fail

Somehow, please look only at me
Somehow, please don't let go of this hand

And we'll walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are..

White Song, Hyde

2008-11-21T09:56:00.001+07:00

Breath
Crisp and cleaning the winter air
I dream of a world in a peaceful sleep
Snow falling gracefully down
Rejoice in winter's deep charm
I can't wait
I can't wait

Freeze
People gather around the fire
I feel all the warmth that the cold inspire
Frost covered tree tops are bright
Shimmering silver tonight
I can't wait
I can't wait

I hope snow will fall upon as soon
Everywhere
The whole world veiled in white
I'd be reset to face the seasons
Once again

Yes on and on falls the snow
Like diamonds from the sky

Our broken hearts-paint them white
Lead us into a wonderland
Pure as the snow-virgin white
A new beginning

And i hope snow will fall upon as soon
Everywhere
The whole world veiled in white
I'd be reset to face the seasons
Once again

Don't Speak, No Doubt

2008-07-31T19:12:00.000+07:00

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

My Favourite Game, The Cardigans

2008-07-24T20:06:00.001+07:00

I don't know what you're looking for
you haven't found it baby, that's for sure
You rip me up, you spread me all around
in the dust of the deed of time

And this is not a case of lust, you see
it's not a matter of you versus me
It's fine the way you want me on your own
but in the end it's always me alone

And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my baby
losing my favourite game

I only know what I've been working for
another you so I could love you more
I really thought that I could take you there
but my experiment is not getting us anywhere

I had a vision I could turn you right
a stupid mission and a lethal fight
I should have seen it when my hope was new
my heart is black and my body is blue

And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my baby
losing my favourite game

I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I tried, I tried, (but you're still the same) I tried
I'm losing my baby
you're losing a saviour and a saint

Lovefool, The Cardigans

2008-07-24T20:03:00.000+07:00

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
you love me no longer, I know
and maybe there is nothing
that I can do to make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
that I ought just stick to another man
a man that surely deserves me
but I think you do!

So I cry, and I pray and I beg

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to
Love me love me
say that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered,
spent my nights awake and I wonder
what I could have done in another way
to make you stay
Reason will not pledge a solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to
Love me love me
say that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

(anything but you)

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
Love me love me
I know that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Ushinawareta Fuukei no Yume, Rentrer en Soi

2008-07-20T21:59:00.000+07:00

The dream of the lost scenery

When I raise my eyes
The townscape,
which doesn't change from how it's been on this day, softly

No matter how often my thoughts echo inside of my heart
They have left you completely, didn't they?

At least once again, return the lost time to this place

You announced your farewell in the season when the cherry blossoms fall down
I accepted the end Though I don't think I'll be able to forget

I've been staring outside my window all the time
And in the between the times when I'm dozing of
When it appeares again in my dreams of you
It just leaves me, hollowly
The dreams of the lost scenery repeat day after day
And tears run down my cheeks

Until the end, I was unable to show you any weakness
Now I could tell you these terribly important thoughts, These thoughts which won't dry up

My heart falls inside of the season that's filled with thousands of blooming flowers

while my guitar gently weeps, The Beatles

2008-06-08T23:17:00.000+07:00

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it need sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know why nobody told you
how to unfold you love
I don't know how someone controlled you
they bought and sold you

I look at the world and I notice it's turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know how you were diverted
you were perverted too
I don't know how you were inverted
no one alerted you

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at you all
Still my guitar gently weeps

Oh, oh, oh
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah

Yesterday, The Beatles

2008-06-08T23:16:00.000+07:00

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away.
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go
I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she had to go
I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.

Yoru wo Kakeru, Spitz

2008-05-11T00:05:00.002+07:00

With an unconcious bluff, from the room which is painted with a lie
I sneak away to gaze into the night sky
I jump over the twisted wire mesh as I always do
And hitting the hard pavement, I keep running.

We who are so different are connected by a thin thread
It's not like that strong red string
In the place where the huge trees meet, there's barely a noise
Just the sound of the both of us breathing

As we play together in this empty little town
Our eyes meet and we laugh
Keep running against the night, not fighting it now
Towards that distant light, keep running.

The graffitti on the wall, before anyone knows the clock has stopped
And we're given eternal freedom
Turning my back to the sensation of the cold concrete,
And tasting your sweet and bitter tongue, once again.

At random, you drew a rose-coloured portrait from your imagination
And the lightning in the west made it glow
Keep running against the night, not fighting it now
Tear away from ruinous decisions, and keep running.

As we play together in this empty little town
Our eyes meet and we laugh
Keep running against the night, not fighting it now
Towards that distant light, keep running.

To You I Blong, B*Witched

2008-04-18T08:55:00.000+07:00

Rain fell down,
You were there
I cried for you when I
Hurt my hand
Storm a-rushing in
Wind was howling
I called for you
You were there

Whenever dark turns to night
And all the dreams sing their song
In the daylight forever
To you I belong

Beside the sea
When the waves broke
I drew a heart for you in the sand
In fields where streams
Turn to rivers
I ran to you
You were there

Whenever dark turns to night
And all the dreams sing their song
In the daylight forever
To you I belong

I ran to you
You were there

Whenever dark turns to night
And all the dreams sing their song
In the daylight forever
To you I belong

To you I belong
To you I belong

Shinwa, Rentrer en Soi

2008-04-15T17:09:00.000+07:00

I'm so close to you, and yet I can't reach you

The season's come and the flowers bloom
Where should my feelings head towards?

Once upon a time not long ago in the lovely garden
Was a helpless reality and a transient truth

In the blank days where emotions disappeared
I just wanted you to be by my side at least

I thought you'd be the one to understand
My heart is about to break

I just want to hold you in my arms over and over
So why, why do you want to leave me?

The forbidden fruit
If I had not eaten it
Would there have been a different future for us?

How much more do I have to bear?
How much more do I have to suffer?
How much more do I have to sink in solitude?
How much more do I have to shed tears?

The limitless sky knows no shame
It just pours down so nice and sweet

When I close my eyes, I see the bright colors of when I was young

I'm so close to you, and yet I can't reach you

The season's come and the flowers bloom
Where should my feelings head towards?

The broken heart looks for the answer
And my eyes just fill up with tears

I just want to hold you in my arms over and over
So why, why do you want to leave me?

Lost Heaven, L'arc en Ciel

2008-03-16T14:56:00.001+07:00

Wo! Clasping onto our countless dreams, towards an endless paradise
Running through the distant roads,disregarding all the things we've lost
Without any single doubt.

We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.

That dream we've been reaching for, was just a crumbling castle of sand
I remained standing there, at the crossroads, seeing your smile
as you disappeared and ran toward the paradise you've been dreaming of.

We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.

The stars in the sky can't come together as one
A red boquet of flowers for the final performance

I broke into a run reaching what is ahead of me, even if it's just an illusion.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
(YEAH!)

We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven.

We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.

We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.(YEAH!)
How we longed for Heaven.(YEAH!)
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost

I wish you good luck. I still remember everyday
I wish you good luck. I still remember everyday

Shoukyo to Sakujyo, Miyavi

2008-03-16T14:44:00.000+07:00

I deal with now head on
because it was my decision
This is no time for crying
so don't be down in the dumps
Now I've heard everything
I hope that we will be able to cope with...

Umm, is it a punishment cuz I caused so much mischief, I can't... I can't take it anymore.
If I promise never to do it again will you tell me to just "Forget it"?

A toy box full of memories, almost overflowing from my two hands.
I'll close the box with the key inside.

Gently gently so that it doesn't sway, forever forever more kill your breath, more and more I wanted to stay staring at it.
The blocks crumbled down.
Ah.

A bit flowed out but, a souvenier box made of tears.
If I open it, will I become a grownup?

With a loud sound, it crashed to pieces, but all I could do was sit and stare.
At the slow motion scenery.
Or what was supposed to be in slow motion.

With one sneeze it was all gone.

Time is moving on, it's moving on, it's moving on and on but it stopped.
I wonder why.
And I knew it too, I knew that, I knew that but I wonder why
I don't know why.

If I could possibly "Erase n Delete" would I feel the least relieved?

I think it would.

I said it would.

Alright already.

Romancing Train, Globe

2008-03-16T14:36:00.001+07:00

Romancing Train, you'll hear the whitle again
bring all your pains, yeah, it's tonight

And then the journey with you begins, heading for somewhere
The Trance Euro Express runs of into the nightimet scenery
Let me keep listening to your heart, let me close my eyes and be absorbed in it
It's only the two of us, only love along on this journey
hey come and join to the express

(Romancing Train, Bring all the pain) Your weary heart
(Romancing Train, whistle again) Will be held gently
"Love is here"
(bring all the tears and pain right now bring it out)
Whisper it into my ear until I fall asleep

The low clouds blanket the late, moonlit night
I feel like I can reach them if I stretch out my hand, until I break through and soar
Yeah, I turn the pages softly, so I don't wake you up
A paperback, a romance composed of old words

Your warmth flows into me as I bury my cheek in your shoulder
Our love is gently guarded by the Trance Euro Express
This dreamlike reality is a melody
Don't let it end like this - leave the train whistle behind in the night
hey come and join to the express

(Romancing Train, Bring all the pain) Even your flowing tears
(Romancing Train, whistle again) Will be wrapped up and cured
Love is living here
(bring all the tears and pain right now bring it out)
I want to be rocked until dawn, alone with you
(bring all the tears and pain oh yeah romancing train)

wow wow romancing train　goin' up goin' down
makes me forget my pain　la-la-la
(you'll hear the endless of reflain)
wow wow romancing train　goin' up goin' down
(you'll hear the endless of reflain)
makes me forget to cry　my love is in the express

And now it's just the two of us in this wandering tale
I want to forget about what's waiting at the last stop on this journey
The journey can grant our dreams, your wish is shining strong
Come on, bring even the tears, Romancing Train

Romancing Train
(Romancing Train, Bring all the pain) Your weary heart
(Romancing Train, whistle again) Will be held gently
(Romancing Train, Bring all the pain) We are searching for beauty
(Romancing Train) In the deepening elegance
Love is dreaming
(bring all the tears and pain right now bring it out)
Just let me sleep softly, just like this
(bring all the tears and pain oh yeah romancing train)

Love Song, 311, The Cure

2008-03-11T12:35:00.000+07:00

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Daybreak's Bell, L'arc en Ciel

2008-03-11T12:18:00.001+07:00

Hey, haven’t you seen another shape besides this one? That’s so sad
To you, there’s no desire to die or to kill, oh, please

Drink it up, even the fate, to the sinking sea
My wishes, ride on the wind, ring the bell of the daybreak
Just like a bird My wishes over their airspace
Cross through the countless number of waves, stand against tomorrow,
protecting you My life I trade in for your pain
Stop the dispute!

Hey, why people pile up the repeating mistakes?
No one is evolving, this flowing blood, I loathe it most
To judge each other by instinct, in this no-one-around earth

If the clear future has come, the flower plants will also
dwell in the weapons My wishes over their airspace
Anyone, shake me up, wake me up from the nightmare
If it comes true My life I trade in for your pain
How long should I pray until it reaches the sky?

Now the morning glow pictures the ocean and me

My wishes, ride on the wind, ring the bell of the daybreak
Just like a bird My wishes over their airspace
Cross through the countless number of waves, stand against tomorrow,
protecting you My life I trade in for your pain
Flap your wings without turning around, bring along these thoughts, fly to that sky
The future can’t be defeated by anyone

Child Pray, Dir en Grey

2008-03-11T12:14:00.000+07:00

Dying a Child

Kiss me deadly

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

Hurry & May

Child Prey

The reasons why one can't laugh from the heart

It's a simple reason

That's life

Kiss me deadly

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

Child is Burning

Kiss me deadly

Kiss me deadly

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me

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other version.. english version..

Dying a Child
Child Prey
Hurry & May
Nurturing a Wild
Wild clay
Bully & Jay
the reasons why one can't laugh from the heart
the treasons which one can't take from the heart
it's a simple reason
it's a nimble treason
that's life
Kiss Me Deadly
What a knife
Pass Me Dreadly
Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me
Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me
Child Is Burning
Pass Me Tell Me Move Me
Pass Me Tell Me Move Me
Wild Is Turning
Kiss Me Kill Me Love Me
Kiss Me Deadly
Pass Me Tell Me Move Me
Pass Me Dreadly

Binetsu shita de Shajitsu shita Shinsou ha Atesaki Fumei no Tegami to Naru, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T23:24:00.000+07:00

The crowd around the cold person,
requesting to become warm, with emptiness within.

And the letter, does it reach, and echo within your mind?
Deeply, so deeply to the heart.

The reality reflected in these eyes, put together on a white piece of paper that
will be written in the future, cannot save the voice, that cannot be written or spelled.

I want to touch these people, these energies of warmth. .. Why?

If you become aware, a person all alone, how can you not give,
Deeply, so deeply with the heart.

Such a vivid longing, returns every day, in the middle of all this,
withering in the gentle light.

The reality reflected in these eyes, put together on a white piece of paper that
will be written in the future, cannot save the voice, that cannot be written or spelled.

I dream, while ungracefully, searching for this light. Holding onto this with a will, that cannot be shaken,
in order to grip for something.
With the stare of reality, that holds no hope, not like in the dream.

Single Bed, SharanQ

2008-03-02T21:50:00.001+07:00

Not singing the latest songs,
no wonder I'm out of style.
In the year we've been apart,
I decided to be a better man.

Nevertheless, even if I dress fashionably
and change my car,
the vulnerable (exposed) heart I've always had
will never change.

Though I thought I would forget
our parting,
the melody from that time
makes me remember.

In a single bed, when I held both you and my dream,
we could laugh together,
even at silly little things.
With the fragrance of the wind the same as it was then,
it's as if it wouldn't be so painful
to fall in love again.

Our love started out like a short detour,
yet lasted two years.
The night I first held you,
I was quivering more than you.

I thought love would be
more common than stones.
But it's harder to find
than diamonds...

In a single bed, when we wiped each other's tears,
we bet on who would be the one to break it off.

If I could go back to that time,
then I wouldn't let you go.

In a single bed, when I held both you and my dream,
we could laugh together,
even at silly little things.
With the fragrance of the wind the same as it was then,
it's as if it wouldn't be so painful
to fall in love again.
Woah...

Blurry Eyes, L'arc en Ciel

2008-03-02T21:05:00.002+07:00

Carried on a wind
from far away,
no matter how many times I try to say these words,
they never reach you.
Once again, my eyes stare somewhere
out the window.

This foreboding hasn't changed, I still feel it.
Those days are getting blurry...

Seeing through
blank eyes
like a caged bird,
the light of the afternoon sun is just like
the light that shines on you
from outside.

This foreboding hasn't changed, I still feel it.
Those days are becoming blurry...

I feel the changing season
will see my promise broken.
Even if I reach out with my hands,
my heart will stay distant.

(Why do you stare at the sky with your blurry eyes?)

I feel the changing season
will see my promise broken.
Even if I reach out with my hands,
my heart will stay distant.

In the changing season,
the one precious to me
looked back toward me with those eyes,
sighing softly.

(Your blurry eyes) ...your blurry eyes
(Your blurry eyes) ...My heart
(Your blurry eyes) ...will stay
(Your blurry eyes) ...distant.

Wither, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T21:05:00.001+07:00

I’m going to tell you of an end that turns all to ash, even consciousness

Now I’m spinning a tale of the piled-up memories of a short life

With this I decay and return to the earth
Until my voice withers I’ll cry out in this instant foolishly

Torn apart, I embrace the pain within the flames
Toward a vivid future…

Tears are scattered together with separated artificial flowers

How often are only screams joined

My burned right arm gradually melts
Accelerating the pain, once more I return to that day

I still cruelly vomit these colored feelings
Ah, I’ll keep burning like this

Torn apart, I embrace the pain within the flames
My played heart can’t be saved…

I still cruelly vomit these colored feelings
Ah, I’ll keep burning like this

Torn apart, I embrace the pain within the flames
My played heart can’t be saved…

I’m still cruelly torn apart…

Wither, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T21:05:00.000+07:00

Even consciousness ends and turns to ash

I spin memories of my short life

That is falling to ruin, and returning to the ground
I cry in these moments foolishly, until my voice withers

Suffering in the flames, carrying this pain
Into the severe future...

The tears come back to me, watering the solitary artificial flower

How many times do I have to scream?

My right arm is burnt and continues to melt
The pain intensifies, and I return to that day

My thoughts were colored by cruelty.
For this, I burn.

Suffering in the flames, carrying the pain
The cruel hearts are not saved...

My thoughts were colored by cruelty.
For this, I die.

Suffering in the flames, carrying the pain
The cruel hearts are not saved...

Because of my cruelty, I suffer...
Because of my cruelty, I suffer...
Because of my cruelty, I suffer...
Because of my cruelty, I suffer...
Because of my cruelty...

Taiyou no Todokanai Basho, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T21:02:00.000+07:00

This is,
The Coffin of water
All lives,
Hide their breaths here

The depths
↓ Cruelty
Suffocation
↓ Imbalanced psychological stage

So...
Endless silence spreads
So...
You fritters and scatters

I sigh, I pray,
Ah.....
All just float towards the bubbles

The sound of the invited life is shown on the reflecting water
The piling up of harmonic sounds, the forgetfulness of the counter-current

So...
I fall asleep depressingly
So...
The result of returning............

I spread my wings, with light surrounding
Ah...
I face death

This is,
The Coffin of water
All lives,
Hide their breaths here

- The bright sun full of wisdom cannot reach this place -

So...
Endless silence spreads
So...
You fritters and scatters

Crying in pain
Ah...
All just float towards the bubbles

Your gentle sleep is covered with colour
Only your quiet pulse resounds calmly

"I don't want to forget again..... "
Your pulse
The swinging scale, the upside down space

Ah...
I want to change the present moment
Ah...
I want to change the present moment

Facing mother earth, where everything was given life
Ah...
I miss you.........

Sincerely, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T21:01:00.001+07:00

We met in one occasion...
And then the snowy landscape was like being covered with colour

The overflown desire dripped bit by bit
And I felt like I couldn't breathe

They all remain clear...
I still can't let go of my feelings over you

The desire is still burning in my heart
No matter how many season went pass
No matter how much time we've lost
If we can be together again......

The thrust of the stabbed love...
The flower planted over your raging heart beat
Let my love bloom out of season
And let it sprinkle with an everlasting heat

The sun dances outside the window
It makes me feel dazzling and painful
The sadness is erased with a smile
And the stream of tears is gone

The desire is still burning in my heart
No matter how many season went pass
No matter how much time we've lost
If we can be together again......

An echo starts in my mind
I won't wake from this dream...A dream where everything blooms in profusion

The glittering desire whispers...
"Please stay by my side forever"

Season, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T21:01:00.000+07:00

I want to bloom in memories that don't die
Not to be illuminated in goodbyes
Though I want to be forever swayed in the seasons
I am not captivated...

Like this second hand echoed, by my side in uncertainty
The treasured thing, unnoticed, it has disappeared

Won't I always lose like this?

Having sunk into this emptiness, the flower withered

Like this, the broken pieces will also be left behind
Won't the world embraced by fate be destroyed?

Inside the endlessly flowing time
I search for memories that don't die
No matter how many times I looked for you
You disappeared in time...

Your heart has gone to pieces like a glass,
but the memory closes beside me till the end.

Closing my eye I felt the flow...
There was no end
Perhaps the word "eternity" has no meaning.

Soon the colors changed
Becoming a sepia color and danced far away
Admiring the endless sky, I rest my chin in my hands
Will I also disappear in time?

I want to bloom in memories that don't die
Not to be illuminated in goodbyes
Though I want to be forever swayed in the seasons
I am not captivated...

Rebirth, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:59:00.002+07:00

In the closed room the scream changes to a sweet sigh
The mischievious behavior of my envious heart leaves

The shape of love and truth is traced with the collar and retraint
Immediately before the madness the writing with wax and blood say "Re-birth"

thrown...broke...trance...fall
slow...groan...trance...trick
drown...grown...trance...lip
flown...clone...trance...trip

The form with the flower bouquet hanging
It will probably sneak away from this garden
The cruel flower, however beautiful, has a painful fragrance
It will probably sneak away from the cursed land
It probably will sneak away from the paradise of withrawl
It will probably sneak away from the world of grudges and betrayal
While it will be embraced with awe, it will probably sneak away
It will probably sneak away from the disgusting garden
It will probably sneak away to the fruit it has wanted
It will probably sneak away with the invitation of the snake
It will probably sneak back to the playback which you dreamed

thrown...broke...trance...fall
slow...groan...trance...trick
drown...grown...trance...lip
flown...clone...trance...trip

Domesticating tragedy of the masked heart
Coming out of the shell that was put in heaven
Now it is born and changed

Protoplasm, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:59:00.001+07:00

In the darkness of the night, when you cry
and cannot sleep, like a bird in a cage- it closes
and is depressed, smites obfuscation.
One person is scared? Consciousness separates?
The pain in the interior of the chest increases again.

Because it is nothing but painful,
Painful, and it is painful in the morning that
does not dawn.
Begging to the frightening* sky, everyday life ceases to end
and is bound in the chaos that pours down, to the cartridge.
Continue to decorate it, while self denial is hidden, under it, lying.
You're skillfully alive now.

What time was lost? Even thinking it's important is broken.
Taking even the memory, with the heart, it's become dirty,
and dyed with actuality, by the far world.

Stare at the essential qualities.The vicinity overflows with the lie.
Open the door of time.Touch your past.Search for the existing reason.
The mind is sure to awake.The true future begins to appear.
The living thing is composed of protoplasm.It listens and is started.
Certain heart sound and second hands.It is only a prelude.
But...As long as you are.It doesn't finish ringing.

The truth you held quietly, while tears you embraced, quietly,
and closely, in reality.

Shouting destroys the subdued way of thinking, it passes every
day, under the surface, screaming.

Destruction that can touch the frightening* sky and break it open!
I become dirty, turning over my heart** and the door of time.

It will begin to show the dream of time, in the interior of the pupil,
shedding tears into the future, one drop.

The place where the sun does not reach,
The deep sea, from which the casket is obtained,
light from within this hand, return again.

Mizu Yumemiru Chouchou, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:59:00.000+07:00

The buried fragment of evolution broke off
The powerless empty thoughts echoed in my mind
And my mind was caught by the dream reflected by the staling wings

Although we've said goodbye, I want to meet you again
If you allow me to do so... If you can forgive me...
Even if the night is full of pain, we can surely overcome them
If we are together...

The thoughts which I want to express to you are accumulating
My desire is not fulfilled
Since the day you parted with me, my heart went as dry as a desert
And I still can't wake from this lapis lazuli blue dream

Tears spilled from my glass-like eyes
I want to touch you forever...
I still can't forget the moment when we parted
It's just so distressing that I can't go back again...

Tangling within fate
I keep asking for the meaning of our encounter

............At the end of the days with a glittering end
Again and again, my mind was caught by the dream

Tears spilled from my glass-like eyes
I want to touch you forever...
I still can't forget the moment when we parted
It's just so distressing that I can't go back again...
Although we've said goodbye, I want to meet you again
If you allow me to do so... If you forgive me...
Even if the night is full of pain, we can surely overcome them
If we are together...

Karaisuiro no Taiji, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:57:00.003+07:00

am 4:54

lexotan 2mg

etizolam 1mg

The street wriggles madly during dawn
You swallow the sleeping pills quickly

Now........ "Goodbye..." Cannot be voiced out

am 5:27

Even Seroquel 25mg is used
You are still cutting your wrist into pieces

Now........"Goodbye..." Is still no where in sight

The undestroyable mind exists within the interstice of reality
During daybreak
The whirlpool up on the sky seems to be appealing for something

The soul of the deceased can't find a meaningful place to go
Because.... everywhere is flooded with lies

Turn on a certain switch beside eyes.
Can you see the true rotting world?
Anyone passes me with the smile that
seems to be happy.What is so pleasant?
The day that keeps frivolous relation and
waits for time of an obligation to pass begins.
It is going to dawn now covered with crow.

What should be done to make you feel fulfilled?

Crowds moving at a fast pace
A horrifying silence
Labouring ticketing machines
High-density box

The street wriggles madly during dawn
Head for the birth-place.... Creep in the dark

The world is decaying.... Now... Only "Goodbye..." still exists

The undestroyable mind exists in imagination
During daybreak
The road within the darkness seems to be telling something

The soul of the deceased can't find a meaningful place to go
Because.... everywhere is flooded with lies

"Don't wanna leave, don't wanna disappear"
It's always like this...
When you've found something important...
It's likely that the thing is already gone

"Don't wanna leave, don't wanna lose"
No matter how you pray, no matter how you wish, you won't be rescued

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Meaningless towers stands everywhere
The town is restless
Impure concrete....... Cracked windows.......
Iron box which comes to a standstill....... All these are just garbages
A clock that keeps on running round and round
Crowds that appears in swarms..................
Is it so?
Therefore, everyone needs to take sleeping pills in order to fall asleep
There may also be times that one suddenly goes mad and cut his wrist
and to hold one's neck tightly
In such a place, people who put in straightly will go mad
Fellows who put in straight won't be believed

Karappo no Hako, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:57:00.002+07:00

Vacant box calls for my consciousness...
It gradually becomes clear
Vacant box calls for my consciousness...
I'm tuning reality but it doesn't become synchronous

When I stripped the mask my heart was empty
(Mr. No face. Mr. No face.)
The corpse attaches, shedding it's skin again and again
(Mr. No face. Mr. No face.)
My corrupted emotions turn reality upside-down
(Mr. No face Mr. No face.)
Slowly the waning overcast sky screams

Enclosed in a world of distractions
The return to the moon kills me, and even now I cannot breathe
The prayer to the moon kills me, I breathe disappointment
(Mr. No face.)
My blood flowed without a reason I'm completely dead
It flowed into the warm ground I'm completely dead
(Mr. No face)
This false warmth of 36.8C I'm completely dead
How much do I swim in that kind of reality? I'm completely dead

Enclosed in a world of distractions
The return to the moon kills me, and even now I can't breathe
The prayer to the moon kills me, I breathe disappointment

never be tainted...
If someday, someday the light reaches me
I could escape darkness in time... I want to get closer

Collapsing and decaying on the ground
The return to the moon kills me, and even now I can't breathe
The prayer to the moon kills me, I breathe disappointment
The return to the moon kills me, and even now I can't breathe
The prayer to the moon kills me, I breathe disappointment

Vacant box calls for my consciousness. .

Itsuwari no Uzu, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:57:00.001+07:00

Sleeping frightens me, I’ll disappear
The muddy world is laughing at me

Let’s throw away this body…
It’s become dirty completely
Is the blood still flowing?
It’s okay so…
The me all of you fear will be torn apart
Like a swarm of faceless ants

Everything is being covered by lies
Being leveled by mad adults
Spit out by the spinning Earth
It’s okay if it’s revealed though, the true nature of the world

Everything is being covered by lies
Transparent emotions are broken down
Feelings of love set in fiction

Everything is being covered by lies
Being leveled by mad adults
Transparent emotions are broken down
Emotions…what are they?
A fake whirlpool?

If that is truly living
Then I can’t live in such a world

Iconoclasm, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:53:00.002+07:00

The assailant and the idolatry
Abnormal respect towards the prelude from Rienzi

The victim and the people saluting
The idealogy of Holst Vessel

Licked the party member number - 7 - closely and awake
-Brainwashing speech-
-Poverty-
-Power-
-Persecution-
-Discrimination-
A trap being set up to completely burn out the witch

The ruler and the worship of a nation
Gose step's identity

Licked the party member number -7- closely and awake
-Brainwashing speech-
-Poverty-
-Power-
-Persecution-
-Discrimination-
It is a trap being set up to completely burn out the witch

Drowned in the current of time, party member number -7-, commit suicide
-Being penetrated by bullets-
-Rebellion-
-Scorn-
-Prohibition-
-Destruction-
The trap of the meaning behind " The prosperous must decay"

hamon Tsutau Memai

2008-03-02T20:53:00.001+07:00

The driving memories echo hollowly…
No matter how much it continues to draw, it will never fade

The spring's scent hides the scars if you entrust your body to sleep
This land has no end Under the flowing snow You are being colored…

If it wakes up it will disappear, the gentle vertigo
And so being illuminated by the moon I will sleep in the endless dream…

The sun's light begins to blot out memories that have piled up
While I look down many tears are flowing
My fingertips are only frightened
Because you are not here….
Because you are not here….
But I wonder, why can I feel a fleeting worry?
Called out by the season I enter the world of sleep
The eye will close in worry anytime
You were by my side…
You were surely there smiling tenderly for me

The lovely season followed the ripples and gave me love…
The sunbeams that flow in The clear blue sky… being painted by you…

If it wakes up it will disappear, the gentle vertigo
And so being illuminated by the moon I will sleep in the endless dream…

Being shaken by hesitations the memories overflow
However
Is this simply a dream?
Therefore
It does not reach in the fingertips
It does not reach in the smiling face
It does not reach in you

Full Moon, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:53:00.000+07:00

The full moon is stuck in the seemingly fake rain
unchanging
trusting
Even now time flows softly
The rustling trees informed us it was evening

Always the floating sadness is
held in time
By the opened window
looking up at the sky and thinking and holding it up to heaven

I was searching... for the pure heart of the light
Sweet like you
A sleepy dream?
I, who looked down, am softly illuminated
Blown in the kind wind

Looking at the endless waving sea
The echoing thought does not come true
If we meet, i wonder if this darkness will clear up
Continuing to sing the desire for the far land

The time you passed me, you moved by faintly...
The light shining inside stretches past you
A sleepy dream?
I, who looked down, am softly illuminated
Blown in the kind wind
Dazzling/blinding...
Is this a dream?

Fallen, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:51:00.002+07:00

No place to go... in the beginning of chaos
I pray to God... kneeling
No way to fly... a lily's innocence
Sir can't you see?... captured

Like an incomplete butterfly held down by gravity
Like the unhealing wound given as punishment by God

I became dirty
in this ugly world
I hate myself most
Destroy me with pity

Just like the incomplete moon, my discouraged blue heart
Mary of the day appeared in the darkness of this room

I became dirty
in this ugly world
I hate myself most
Destroy me with pity

I cannot stop this spoiling heart
Love the broken me with pity

Eyes of Forest, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:51:00.001+07:00

The form of your fantasy appeared on the surface of the water
wavering in confusion
I wanted to stare at it forever

The space with the blooming flowers can't be dyed alone
The floating thoughts before the darkening debris

"Why is it when you believe, it's not true?"
"Why can't it heal?"
-the pain in my heart-

Passing the tree on the roadside that ends above the forest
The unmoving hand of the clock is the key to the world of sleep

The form of your fantasy appeared on the surface of the water
wavering in confusion
wanting to stare at it forever but...
it drifts so I can't see it anymore, the hand on the clock begins to move
broken off from the bright world
leaving the fraying thread

Under the sun, the other side of my heart exists as the shadow of darkness.
How am I going to make it right?

Passing the tree on the roadside that ends above the forest
The unmoving hand of the clock is the key to the world of sleep

The form of your fantasy appeared on the surface of the water
wavering in confusion
wanting to stare at it forever but...
it drifts so I can't see it anymore, the hand on the clock begins to move
When it returns to reality.. I want to see you once more

Crystal Letter, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:51:00.000+07:00

I believed in times with no end.
Even oath freezes quickly.
I want to break the times when I can't sleep.
Even memory.
Coloring the secenery
the same color when I played two years ago, why is it painful?
Still thinking even when it stopped, it can't be delivered.
Fallen from the pure white sky and wrapped in crystal
only images of this landscape pile up, passionately it will melt and disappear.
The echoing nostalgia of yesterday, you aren't anywhere.
still the thought that stopped, can't be delivered.
Fallen from the pure white sky and wrapped in crystal
only images of this landscape pile up, passionately it will melt and disappear
the world where the bright you played, i become blurred
like that time when the sigh whirled around in the same snowfield,
no longer piled up,
quickly it melts.

Aqua, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:50:00.000+07:00

Holding a precious promise in my heart
It's gently dissolving
The sound of cold water is transparent
Blending your heart

I was looking above while sinking down
Drowning in the sky-colored film

Wavering aurora
Just about to cry
As if it's saying goodbye

In the middle of the waving future
I'm living
Washing and carving away the land

Wavering aurora
Just about to cry
As if it's saying goodbye

Melting away into the ocean
praying everlasting
Watching the color of the four seasons changing

Melting away in the future...

Hoshikuzu no Rasen, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:47:00.000+07:00

Now I place my hands on my heart and wish for the commandments to stop
Even this painfully long night will melt into the twinkling stars
Telling... Sending... Hanging in the far away sky
Shining on... It can't be seen... I continue to sleep
Flying high like a spiral released into the bright stars
When I changed I lost the contours of my "dreams" to "reality"

Along with the new moon comes pain
I struggle with this pain alone where the suffocating wind blows
The swarm of memories whirls around, enterwined in one another
I can't do this anymore
I'm slowly losing my senses
I collapse inside, the stardust reflected in my eyes as the night shines on
.....................
And I wished...

Every day I lost my wishes, every night my vows broke down
But my love was burried in fantasy, and I was cured by the twinkling stars
I give my heart to the beautifully reflected stars
They shine on in the heavy rain, the sparkle guiding me

Flying high like a spiral, I continue to pray to the beauty
Now, I should be able to walk until I can meet with the "future"

Telling... Sending... Hanging in the far away sky
Shining on... It can't be seen... I continue to sleep
Flying high like a spiral released into the bright stars
When I changed I lost the contours of my "dreams" to "reality"

Flying high like a spiral, I continue to pray to the beauty
Now, I should be able to walk until I can meet with the "future"

Flying high like a spiral released into the bright stars
When I changed I lost the contours of my "dreams" to "reality"

Ushinawareta Fuukei no Yume, Rentrer en soi

2008-03-02T20:46:00.000+07:00

I look up and I see the city has not changed at all since that day

Even the memories that echo many times in my heart
Why did you leave me?

Just once again, can that lost moment come back?

You said goodbye in the season of the cherry blossoms
I welcomed the end
But I knew I would never be able to forget you

I stare outside the window all day
In between the dozing off, you appear in my dreams
And you just vacantly disappear
Every night in this reoccurring dream with the long gone scenery
My tears run down my face

Even until the end, I could never show you my weak side
But now, I can say what I preciously feel in my heart
The never dying feeling I have for you

My heart scatters in the forever blooming seasons to come

Just Mad Pain, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:44:00.000+07:00

I woke up unexpectedly at night
This voice I hear, is it my window of hope?
Or is it from the depth of my mind?
My eyes are wide open, and yet I don't know
Can't find the reason to live

Feel just mad pain
Feel just mad pain

When did this happen?
My heart is in pain and it won't stop

Feel just mad pain
Feel just mad pain

Everything seems to be a lie
And everything keeps deceiving me

I woke up flapping my wings
The scattered agony and the reality warns and wanders in my tears

The confusion weighs in again
The unstoppable voices start a diffused reflection
Can it be erased?
Can it be killed?
I close my eyes, but I don't know
Can't find a single proof that I'm living

In this transitory world
I stare into my heart becoming stained
And I'm alone and I can't do anything
In the pain

Feel just mad pain
Feel just mad pain

Why?
I hold dear within my ill gotten beliefs
Why?
I welcome tomorrow without understanding today

I woke up flapping my wings
The scattered agony and the reality warns and wanders in my tears

It bloomed in the traces of my tears
Held by nothingness
In the voice that won't stop ringing
Deep inside the burned out truth
Is the one piece of hope

Thorny Rain Break, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:43:00.000+07:00

Agony melts away with the sound of the rain
Silence scatters numerously

In between the trembling words
It's so painful

I'm outside the cage with my broken wings
Looking up at the pale sky

In the overflowing guilt
Hope. drowning in the lies pours down
The thorny rain

It sinks into the night
Becoming aware that I'm all alone
Just being scared, sad, and lonely

The feeling of sadness rises
And it feels more than yesterday
Deep inside
It burdens me still

Now, the crushed philosophy
Rain and blood merge
Gets twisted
We now know the truth, along with fiction

The brightness is erased by you

The screams melt away in the sound of the rain
And emotions reflect in the raindrops

My heart has always been crying
There's nothing you can do, I hate myself
There is no place for me
I want to disappear

The feeling of sorrow rises
And it feels more than yesterday
And it has still been a burden on me

Now, the crushed dreams
Rain and blood merge
Gets twisted
We now knot the truth, along with fiction

It pours down, The thorny rain

Misshitsu to Kodoku ni Dokusareta Yuutsu, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:41:00.000+07:00

In this shiny world
The darkness of depression rips through
I sink in the endless solitude
What should I wish for? What should I feel for?

I want to cut off this filter of emotion
There is no way to save me now

I will be betrayed again
Reality that's full of lies
I get sucked into everything unreal

The edge of a precipice
Break the wall
In the pool of controlled values
The maze in search of truth
The place of chaos
Go mad with your cheap and fake pride

A travel through a tube and end up in your infection
Can you show me an inside ugly part of a heart?

Unable to kill the dark depression in the confusion
I sink in the peeled off solitude
What should I wish for?
What should I pray for?

Come drowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
In the depth of the soon to be poisoned solitude
Can't fight against scattered consciousness
The overflowing water at the foot reflects
The bright depression
Forever
Forever
Forever

Be disgusted in the pool of despair

Unable to kill the dark depression in the confusion
I sink in the peeled off solitude
What should I wish for?
What should I pray for?

Like an illusion that's linked with the end of darkness
No place for this dead soul
Where should I go live now?

To Invinity, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-02T20:38:00.000+07:00

Everything will disappear now
Like the forgotten world
Souls will not be seen
Oh Sweet Maria, where are you

Good bye I'm going to be cut off
Gravity ties us down daily
I want to see you from the bottom of my heart

I try to find the broken love in my sleep

I wake up, and in the dream you say "Don't go"
Season's wind is my serenade

The undesired world is here
Dark skies Dead flowers Broken wings
My heart has been stained
I'm in pain without you

I try and find the broken love in my sleep

I wake up, and in the dream you say "Don't go"
Season's wind is my serenade

In the waxing and waning of the moon
Everything just leaves me
In a broken world without you
I lost the light

Perfect Moment, Hyde

2008-03-01T11:26:00.002+07:00

Ah, the sun is born of night, it sets again
Though no one’s here to see - it’s endless

Sad, but everybody knows
A trip to heaven’s not really on the cards, no
Yet my “moment” has come
A crying shame, for now my life is over

So perfect, this moment So perfect, this moment
I’m happy to die in this moment

Ah, the sun is born of night, it sets again
Though no one’s here to see, it’s endless

So perfect, this moment So perfect, this moment
I’m happy to die in this moment

I’ve been to Heaven Heaven on Earth

Ah, the sun is born of night
Ah, the sun is born of night It’s endless

Cyclone, 12012

2008-03-01T11:20:00.002+07:00

I wish you out, out the west trail
I wish you out, out the west trail
I wish you out, out the west trail

I don’t even know your fragrance
I don’t even know your gestures
All of my memories are erased

I don’t even know the meaning of living
I don’t even know the will to survive
Come to think of it, whom was I loved by?

Within the passing seasons
everything is swallowed by the flow of spinning time
And I find my way to you

The days when we fought each other and even the nights when we crumbled in sorrow
I start changing them into food for living the present

I don’t even know your whereabouts
I don’t even know your smile
I’m set adrift in the cyclone of anxiety
My heart’s wound can’t be healed
I can’t wipe away my heart’s tears
either; I seem to grow mad in loneliness

In the season when we love each other
like how we were back then
I completely forget about everything
And I’ll certainly go meet you

The days when we hated each other and the nights when we anguished in despair
I change them into food for creating myself
I wait for you at our promised place now and gaze into the distance
But you don’t show up; someone, answer me

“Can the future me really be laughing now?”
I say to myself, who lives the present
It’s our promised time
I search for you now at this place but you’re nowhere to be found
Why, huh? Someone, answer me

I wish you out, out the west trail
I wish you out, out the west trail
I wish you out, out the west trail

You Are, Dolly Parton

2008-03-01T11:19:00.001+07:00

Sometimes I try to count the ways and reasons that I love you
But I can't ever seem to count that far
I love you in a million ways and for a million reasons
More than this I love you as you are
More than this I love you as you are

You are my inspiration, you are the song I sing
You are what makes me happy, you are my everything
You are my daily sunshine, you are my ev'ning star
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want, that's what you are
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want is what you are

You are my thoughts when I'm awake, my dreams when I'm asleep
You are the reason for my smile, you are the words I speak
Every role I play in life you play the leading part
Ev'rything I'd ever hope to find is what you are
Ev'rything I'd ever hope to find is what you are

You are my inspiration, you are the song I sing
You are what makes me happy, you are my everything
You are my daily sunshine, you are my ev'ning star
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want, that's what you are
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want is what you are

You are...
You are

Denpasar Moon, Maribeth

2008-03-01T11:15:00.001+07:00

Denpasar moon, shining on an empty street
I returned to the place we used to meet
Denpasar moon, shine your light and let me see
That my love is still waiting there for me

I saw you standing there
Through the rain I saw you turn and smile
Were you waving to me
Through the rain I ran across the street.

But you were gone, there was no one
You had vanished with my dreams.

Denpasar moon, shining on an empty street
I returned to the place we used to meet
Denpasar moon, shine you light and let me see
That my love is still waiting there for me

But you were gone, there was no one
You were gone, flying homeward
You were gone, there was no one
You had vanished with my dreams

Denpasar moon, shining on an empty street
I returned to the place we used to meet
Denpasar moon, shine your light and let me see
That my love is still waiting there for me
That my love is still waiting there for me

Vision of You, Rentrer en Soi

2008-03-01T11:11:00.002+07:00

Disappearing with leaving pieces
of the memories of the time I spent with you
We'll never get it back again
I don't want to call them memories

I walk bearing, bearing this sad feeling
I cannot move the unbearable colors

The place where I can be myself
is losing light
weakness and strength and everything
you always watched over me

Unberable non-gathering hearts, hearts
Now get rid of this nightly, circular pain

Swinging, swinging your inerasable memory
One more time, one more time I want to let it reflect in my eyes
I want to touch you right now

Drying up tears with this sinking, sinking feeling
When I can't sleep I'm always, always thinking of you

Please, I want to see you, as if it fills to the sky
Always, always until the day you reflect in my eyes

Swinging, swinging your inerasable memory
One more time, one more time I want to let it reflect in my eyes
I want to touch you right now

Fly me to the Moon, Utada Hikaru

2008-02-28T23:01:00.001+07:00

Poets often use many words
To say a simple thing
But it takes thought and time and rhyme
To make a poem sing

With music and words I'll be playin'
For you, I have written a song
To be sure that you know what I'm sayin'
I'll translate as I go along

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Won't you let me see what spring
Is like on Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forevermore
'Cause you are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

In other words, please be true
(Please be true, I just want you to be true)
In other words, yeah yeah yeah yeah,
I love you
(I love you, I love you)
Oh oh

C'mon, just take me to the moon and back

Da da da da da da
Da da da da da yeah

White poem I, X Japan

2008-02-28T22:59:00.001+07:00

I ... I feel so blue ...
I ... I feel so blue... in this white poem.
I feel so blue.
I feel so blue... in this white poem.
I...

Tell me why, tell me why, tell me why, the wind is so cold.
Take my heart.
Make things right.

Love ... love will find a way.
This is the line you used to love.
This is the line you used to love.

I ... I feel so blue...
Tell me why, tell me why, tell me why, I feel so blue ...
Tell me why, tell me why I love you.

My love for you would break my heart.
No no no ...
No way to change my heart
I still wanna be in this endless blue verse...

This is the line you used to love ...
love will find a way.
This is the line you used to love.
Do you still believe that?
While I'm away... Read this line again.

I don't wanna miss a thing, Aerosmith

2008-02-28T22:54:00.002+07:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

the Abyss of Despair, Rentrer en Soi

2008-02-27T22:51:00.003+07:00

I am never satisfied Your false laughter echoes
Live cleverly at the utmost In other words, you should die

Get it warped and twisted, all burned to ashes
Have everything destroyed here
Abandon a pride
Just spit it out
You'll be better off

The truth is crushed

I am never satisfied All is coaxed for a lie

The sky cries
"Can you compensate for my cry?"
It's a merciless wish
The red fruit devoured to the marrow of the bone

Betrayal
Hatred
Chaos
Despair
Sorrow
Rage
Burned in me
Can't let go
Can't take it
Can't break it
Can't lose it
Can't crush it
Can't shred it

The sky cries
"Can you compensate for my cry?"
The cruel reality is, that it's a transitory, foolish,
ignominious and rotten world

In memory, there is that pain we suffered in countless millions
I know it I understand it
That the future just holds darkness

Beautiful Girl, Jose Mari Chan

2008-02-27T17:20:00.002+07:00

Beautiful girl, wherever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.

You said "hello" and I turned to go
But something in your eyes left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.

Refrain :

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find
That you were gone.

Whenever you are, I fear that I might
Have lost you forever like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again after a long, long while
I've loved again.

*Repeat Refrain

Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come true
You've made me love again after a long, long while
In love again

And I'm glad that it's you
Hmm, beautiful girl.

My Heart Draws a Dream, L'arc en Ciel

2008-02-27T00:27:00.004+07:00

Look! the wind has moved,i won’t give up yet
i feel the sun behind the clouds i think you’ll be there in an opposite wind

This chest is drawing a dream, towards to anywhere
fly high towards to the freedom MY HEART DRAWS A DREAM

Oh if I’d gone down in that place and I had opened my eyes
I have the impression that I could find you with that smile
I think that can find you it would be great

Right! If we join the sighs, we’ll fly higher
I wonder if there you can see the future?
We will walk together

This chest is drawing a dream, I’m going to overcome
a distant moment MY HEART DRAWS A DREAM

I think if someday doubtlessly it’d fulfilled it would be great
as you could be there with that smile

Come on! I extend my hand, now i know it
my heart wont join to nobody else
that day when you poured your look over me I’ve captured it
In a kind of frozen word

Nobody everybody
I draw a dream
I draw a dream
I draw a dream
MY HEART DRAWS A DREAM
I draw a dream
I draw a dream
I draw a dream look!

Oh if I’d gone down in that place and I’d opened my eyes
Ah I think that find you with that smile would be great

Last Word, Rentrer en Soi

2008-02-26T23:58:00.007+07:00

I went around the sun and moon carrying you in my arms
Swaying in the silver rays of sunlight
A gallery of bright sunshine, your voice heard in the distance
Warmly, kindly

I want to be near you until the last season
Because I've held your hand the whole way

Disappearing into the scenery
Illuminating in your eyes

I want to be near you until the last season
Because I've held your hand the whole way

I am finished
Upon the cold pillow I place your ring
Tomorrow won't come again...
This warmth is serene, I'm finished, broken, finished

The morning won't come again

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2008-02-26T23:42:00.004+07:00

start.

this is my first post here at blogger.

i hope i can continue blogging here.

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